... and yet here I am! My first time posting in a while yet again, and I choose to do it at midnight the day before finals week officially begins (although I guess technically, it IS finals week!). As bad as it is, I must say this seems fitting with the whole procrastination theme I've been seeing all over the internet tonight. Anyway, you don't need to hear me talk on forever about that, I'll save it for another day.
Tonight more than anything I am having a moment of gratitude. My boyfriend got home from being in New York auditioning at graduate schools about a week ago, and since he has been back I feel even more grateful to have him in my life. I value my time with him even more because I know that soon he will be leaving for a longer period of time than these short trips, and I want to make every moment count. Of course I am sad that he will be leaving, but I also feel so incredibly lucky that we have been able to be together for as long as we have, and am so excited for the amazing opportunities that lie ahead of him in his career. He is one of the most talented people I know, and I cannot wait to see him grow into the amazing concert pianist I know he will become. The other qualities about him that astound me are his intense humility and unending support for my goals. I have never met someone so talented beyond his peers who continually says, "Anyone can become extremely good at music as long as they practice hard. Talent is overrated." And he supports me every step of the way in my musical and other endeavors without making me feel at all stupid for being confused or scared about some of the things I am going through that he has already dealt with. These are the qualities I could have only hoped to find, but I managed to find that and so much more. If it seems as though I am rambling about these cheesy feelings, well, I am. But when you find someone who treats you how you feel you could only dream of, you start to feel pretty lucky considering a lot of people don't find that.
I also feel very lucky to just in general have people in my life who love and support me no matter what happens. I feel like lately I call my parents every day with a different plan for how I want my life to play out. No matter what they are always supportive and they remind me that what is most important is that I am pursuing a career that I will be passionate about. My friends have also helped me in this regard. Those who know me best remind me constantly how I light up like a Christmas tree whenever I talk about neuroscience, and that they can see that is where my true passion lies. For me, not hearing a bunch of disappointed sighs about me not completely pursuing music like I intended and rather feeling love and support from my peers was the best response I could possibly imagine. This is how I know I have true friends, because they care more than anything about my happiness and well-being. This is one of the best feelings you could hope to have.
And now I sit back and reflect on life since starting college. It has only been about two years but still so much has happened! Even through all of the good and the bad, my life has absolutely changed for the better. I have a man in my life who treats me with the chivalry everyone thinks has died, and a group of friends who are even more incredible than what I could have hoped for. Although I came to college to further my education, I have done so much more than that by filling my life with more people that I know I can count on for a long time to come.
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